teal's little thoughts...

well..there i go again, making a complete fool of myself... first i accidently told one of my guy friends, my best friend thought he was cute...then i go an tell him...on accident who i'm crushing on...this should be good... :( now as long as he forgets...which he won't

It’s the new year…finally…but seriously, It doesn’t feel new…just that I know it is new…you know? 2010...though really? It’s the time for resolutions we’ll never truly keep, and a time for new beginnings. Personally? I’m excited.

Fake

yeah sure
I fake it all the time
when you see around
you'll never know what's going down
because i never let my feelings go
i hide them behind my fake smiles
and my petty words
you think i feel that way
i'm lying to you
don't act like you didn't know
it's pretty obvious
your problem is
i fake it so well
you're the only one who knows whats going on
next time don't flirt with my boyfriend
don't claim the truth
i always win
you'll see

My poem for the character of Star  in the book Crazy In Love, by, Dandi Daley Mackall

Death of Heart
 
You can say whatever crap you wanna
It will affect me
I  don't yet know who i am
You wouldn't understand
All the tears i shed for you
I regret
You will never be worth it
Not in my mind
I loved you
I gave up everything for you
Everything but what was most important
But that doesn't mean you didn't break my heart
And tear it out of my body
Throwing it tho the birds
And finding someone else to kill in this game of yours
what a stupid game
if it hurts this much
what have you gained?

This is for a friend